mm..this morning while surfing thru friendster, i received a msg from ah ni!! =) hehe...yup..we kind of lost contact for so long that when i first saw the mail..it was..wow...reallie surprised~ =) hehe..but yaaa...reallie glad that we can keep in contact again! =) hee..=) but this mail..it kinda brought back all the memories i had when ah ni was still my cell leader~...=) i knew her back then when i was juz primary 6!...time reallie flies~...but yaa, our cg multiplied and multiplied and multiplied...but somehow, ah ni and i would always remain in the same cell group! =) and she eventuallie became my cell leader~...u noe there're some cgls who're reallie good~, but they'll always remain as yr leader~..but ah ni was someone else!...more than a leader, she became big sister to me~! =) every trouble i had..everytime i had any doubts..she'll be there for me to comfort me and say nice words~! =) even times when i made mistakes, she'll correct me somehow her words never sounded harsh! =) Its her great love for her members that reallie i dare to say..set her apart from the rest of the leaders in church~..yup~..but somehow...during a certain period, our cell group just woulden't grow~~...no matter what we did, everything we tried...there seemed to be something holding us back~ =P and ya...i know it kind of broke ah ni's heart~....and i felt so responsable for it too!..if only we tried harder..if only we were more commited i know it wouldn't have happened~..*sigh*~..eventuallie pastor Chee kIang tot we should move on and ya, reshuffled our cell group~...and for the first time, not being together with ah ni anymore, i kind of felt reallie weird! I missed my big sister who always understood me and even knew what i was thinking without me saying...but...we had to move on toox~..=( its painful! ya! but no matter what we had to..=P but now..ah ni, she's no longer attending my church due to some other ppl being reallie silly and inflexable~..=P but yaa, i reallie wish that yr luv for God will never grow cold aH ni!! u dun have to be in city harvest to shine for God too...any other church will do as long as they're in line with God's vision! =) yup..u reallie shined when u were here...maybe..just maybe u could shine even brighter elsewhere! =) yup...i reallie miss u loads and u're the best sister i've ever known~..take care lots k~? God bless in whatever u do! =)