i just prayed today! =) and reallie thank God for His refreshing presence and His grace toox..its like i feel so much so much better after pouring out my heart to Him too~! =) yup....actullie..the past few daes..its like its been such a headache and turmoil for me...cause...yaa its like between me and a friend...i had to reallie figure out and make a decision to where we stand in our relationship...she and i are friends..reallie great friends..but somehow over the past few months, i've just felt so drawn and attracted to her...its like more than just the way she looks...but reallie because i feel that i can relate so much to her toox...and ya, when i'm with her i just feel that i can be who i am without worrying what she thinks and stuff...but yet~, i didn't wanna disturb her...not during our exams..but over the past week...after our exams..things just started becoming so awkward...its like....i was always thinking..where do we go from here..and what do i do now...haix..and sometimes i just got so caught up in this that i forgot that there're more important things out there that i've to do...and more important stuffx that i had to act on toox, but somehow, i just turned away from them juz because of this and i just lost my focus in God toox~....but on thurs..as i prayed bout it...as i made a decision that through it all, i'll just give to God this whole relationship thingy..yup...that even if we're to remain as friends...i'll be happie too....yup..cause love is making the other party happie too ya~? =P and yaa..that i know God holds everything in His hands..so if it happens..it happens..but if it dosn't...its okie..yup~ just shun ji zi ran ba....yup...so no more worries! i'm gonna focus on God again and yaa no longer worried bout all this stuff...=P hee..=P yes! i can be happy again! =) praise God..! =) haha..thanks for all the encouragement Sgt mArk! =) God bless and take care peeps! =)