...well..yesterdae and today's seminar in church was reallie great! =) pastor ulf preached reallie wonderful msgs yesterdae and todae and yaa...think it reallie impacted my heart so much too~~ =) we..he talked bout treasuring our friends yesterdae..and today was on missions...and yup, it was reallie so powerful and the presence of God came so strongly too~..=) reallie thank God!! =) hee...but somehow..these past 2 weeks..i know i look reallie sad and down to everyone around me...yAa~, and i dunno y but i just can't help feeling that way sometimes too~...but yaa..guess 2 weeks back while reading this book "the annointing" by benny hinn..i dunno..one question he asked in the book just seemed to pop out of the book and go straight into my heart toox...and yaa...i know God was asking me the same question there and then too...whether i would be willing to pay the price...the price for annointing....yaa..haix and at that moment i knew what the price was too...and that was whether i was willing to give up and let her go....yaa....=( and i dunno..but its reallie such a tough thing to do~!...but i told Jesus that no matter what...its not my will..but His too cause Jesus's the one that means the most to me....yaa...haix..but sometimes i just feel so drawn back to her...i just dunno and i can't bring myself to just drop everything and yaa..see her as a normal friend too~...i'm so afraid that instead of seeing her as a normal friend..i'll start ignoring her altogether...haix..i dun wish for it to be that way..i dun wanna hurt her and lose such a great friend too~~~! =( but somehow..i just feel that its God's plan for her too~..that yaa...God wants her to put Him first and now she's starting to rise up too...i dun wish to be a distraction to her and i just feel that she feels the same way toox~..Lord..no matter how painful and hard this is..help us to reallie put u first Lord...help me to learn how to let go too.....to give everything to u Jesus....actuallie i didn't reallie know whether i should share all this over here too..but ya..i knew i had to write this down to remind myself never to look back....take over Lord...thankq for everything Jesus..=) yaa..okie...i'm gonna lift it all up to Him and ya..stop feeling bothered or sad over it! =) yeah! ...okie..take care peeps..gotta go rest...Nites!