well...guess this few daes have been reallie so challenging!! everything seams to be going wrong in camp...and i'm always the one to blame..*hAix*~..what's going on~? why am i failing at everything i do??! my friends..ppl i care about are leaving church...some of my closests friends are juz shutting me out whenever i wanna share the gosple with them..isit so difficult to start impacting lives~? why're all these things happening?! feel reallie so frustrated too..i dun wanna look this way...i'm so sorriee..everyone if i've shown my black face to u~...haix..i need to have a better character..the character of God!! Lord..take over...its not what i can do..but what u can do through me Lord...i know this's a time of war...i know satan dosn't want my friends to know the love of Christ..dosn't want my cg to grow..but no wAy!! u will neVer win this fight!! we can do all things through Christ who strenthens us!!...i will never give up..help me..change me..mould me to be more like u Lord..give me yr wisdom too...tell me what to say Lord..help me Jesus!! yaa....well..i just wanna say a few things to some ppl in my life too..u guys know who u are....well..the reason i keep sharing bout Jesus with u's not because i wanna promote my religion..nO! religiousity suCks! but ya...Jesus..He's so much more than that..and He's the reason y i am who i am today....u all wanna know why i can always smile? its because of the joy tat He brings in my life...yes..i do feel sad at times, i do get angry many times..yeah! i do! but at the same time, Jesus, He's my strength..He's the reason y i can go on smiling...y i can always be there for others...its because He first loved us so much! and yaa..i wanna share Christ with u its becoz i want u to experience His love..His power in yr life...that's all..nothing more..nothing less...there's only so much words can say...reallie..u've gotta experience it for yrself toO! yaa...to u who told me...when i wanna go, its i who'll call u...not u who'll call me...when will it be when u call me~? when u're old and having yr last breath~? i'm sorrie for being so direct..but what if something happens tomorrow~? will u cry out to Jesus~? it might be too late then...yaa..u wanna know and find yr purpose in life...there's yr answer! Jesus..! if only u'll make a decision to come and know Him..there's so much more in life when He's in our heart! He cares so much for us...that's y He went to the cross to sacrifice Himself for us too...and yaa..reallie..give Jesus a chance will u~? we don't have anything to lose..but everything to gain..yAa..that's reallie what i wanna say to u bro.....yaa..haix..i guess that's all...take care peeps..God bless..~